my life, my words

The people who made my lectures, tutorials, practicals and of course lunch breaks so fantastic.

zoo.

someone of a sister age to us, someone who never reject fun. she gives the most matured advice when it comes to serious stuff.

our routine- NSRCC chalet every holiday

when we were young and innocent.

zh said "the green dustbin is my son".

with ym's pandan bread. (cake, but he kept calling it bread)

someone who always go crazy with me and understand my temper better than others.

someone who always hold onto my arms, cling onto me and tolerated my nonsenses like nobody else. vice versa, she knows when i need someone to cling onto, when i need someone's arm to hold onto.

i miss my friends.

2:59:00 PM Y

Wow my itouch's horoscope application can't get any more true! The words spelt out the struggles between my heart and brain all these while. Amazingly accurate little entertainment source.

It goes..." You understand your feelings but you cannot deal with their irrationality. Your mind knows what should be done but your feelings prevent you from acting sensibly. Accept your feelings as you cannot change them. Search out peace in seclusion and decide whether you want to follow your feelings or your mind. "

And I just come across another teenager girl who gave up her life. What have caused all these unwanted emptiness these days? Our Earth is turning hot, ironically our people are turning cold.

Everyday waking up after 12, earning an income close to a part-timer, enjoying this routine with occasional mental tiredness. Still, kids are lovely angels when they make u laugh at their innocence.

2:30:00 AM Y

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the person who made me super super angry yest called and apologised. =) indeed, its just miscommunication.

sometimes i like how turtle tend to take things so lightly. i believe not that turtle is oblivious of whats happening but turtle choose to close one eye and not scold me for things that i've done wrong. putting myself in turtle's shoe, i would not have been so tolerant. thousand years old turtle is just different.

3:11:00 PM Y

now i feel weird blogging using my laptop, its like i tend to write lesser. im so used to lying on bed and blog through my itouch.

yesterday just when i was reaching for my towel and clothes after bathing, i spotted something huge and black on the floor. being short-sighted and obviously not wearing spects or contact lens, i couldnt figure out what that black black thing was. so i put on my inner wears and shouted for help. my bro came and told me its cockroach! so we shouted for our dad and he came running to our rescue. and guess what, he caught the big black cockroach with his bare hand! i can never master that.

i dont know why but im feeling so gloomy today. i keep having bad dreams and always wake up feeling damn down in the morning/afternoon. fml

the end.
stupid stalkers.

10:26:00 PM Y

Today damn jokes. I actually got myself a scare by the combination of hand dryer and toilet roll dispenser that are adjacent to each other. And the story goes...

I reached my destination early and so decided to explore pasir ris west plaza. Still, I dunno how to describe the place but it's an ulu, run-down plaza. So I found my way to the ulu toilet. I was the only one in the toilet. (obviously since the other cubicle is empty) the horror is coming.

Halfway through my small bizness, the hand dryer activated and started hmmm blowing? At this pt of time, My heart almost skipped a beat while trying to recall if I hear any door opening. Looking at the top of my cubicle hoping nth crawls in or stares at me. I know it's stupid but don't laugh!

I flunged open the cubicle door, washed my hands as fast as I could. Tried my best nt to exchange any stare with myself in the mirror and really did run out of the toilet. Nt forgetting to secretly catch a glance at the hand dryer to see the toilet paper floating juz at the activation pt of the hand dryer.

Cheyyyyyy right, see if it's u will u run out without washing hands or not! I told my listener about it and my listener can't stop laughing at my stupidity. Fml.

12:56:00 AM Y

In this world, we don't always get to choose. Neither can we always achieve what we want to achieve. The only thing we r allowed will be to get the best out of whatever and whereever fate brings us to. Rmb that u do ur best for urself and not to show off to others. A fact that all eyes can see, everything is worth it.

Hyprocrites r always surrounding us, so we have to protect ourselves and always know when's the right situation to put on a mask urself. Haiz, the sophisticated society.

Don't be upset cos I'm in the same boat as u, being treated like a ball. :)

1:18:00 AM Y

i should have went more prepared. i should have given myself more time allowance to get there. i should not have pinned such high hope. i should have known my own standard. nvm, i shall keep that few % of hope with me and not feel so depressed just yet. to make things worse, twice in a day, i insisted in following my decisions and ended up wasting time and money. damn it. my own mistakes totally spoilt my mood for the day. and i really dont like to walk, at a fast pace is even worse.

oh ya, exactly one year ago i started my SIP. i still rmb vividly what happened on the first day. thinking back, i can only laugh at the scene we created back then. going around the factory and greeting my colleagues, trying hard to rmb their names which i only managed to rmb after one mth plus or so. how i always hide my ear piece inside my labcoat and hairnet secretly listening to music while carrying out the microbial testings. how i always hide in the room acting as though im keying in datas but actually trying hard to keep myself updated in facebook or msn. how i always love yet dread lunch time cos i hate socialising with my colleagues in the pantry. not forgetting all the office politics going on btw my manager and boss. how i always literally crawl onto 168 and take a good nap while it travels along cte. 16 weeks didnt pass by easy, the period when counting up is more comforting than counting down.

and i dont like to laugh so hard just to hide my real emotions.

11:50:00 PM Y

i think im very long-winded at times. whenever i need to get a confirmation, i tend to repeat myself a thousand times just to have it drilled into others head. one of my friend even got impatient when i started off our conversation with the same topic which i have been repeating for days. not that i purposely want to be so long-winded but i just dont like to leave things hanging around. i rather have things settled and fixed so that i can write them down in my organiser. and thanks stacey for giving me such a wonderful xmas present during last yr xmas. the organiser came in very handy especially now that i have a quite a no. of students on hand.

you're right to say that the world is selfish and realistic. maybe im the one being selfish all along. that day r was asking us what will we do if tml is the last day. now i have thought of an answer for myself. i will turn my physical torments into the mental torments of those who served me bad. HAHAHA

and like what i tweeted, my agent always know whens the right time to call me. he never fails to wake me up early in the morning or when i just fall asleep for my afternoon nap. and his call can last up to 30 minutes talking crap throughout.

4:19:00 PM Y

as the conversation went deeper, so many "what if" surfaced. i believe this is a wake up call for most of the us out there who are still taking things for granted. dont regret before its too late because unfortunately in life, there is no replay button. there is no such thing as "oh i missed that part, lets rewind and see again". we can only keep the beautiful scenes well in our heart and store them forever as memories. photography is a great invention. =)

think im getting on age cos i feel so tired after the overnight mahjong. i promised myself to say no to overnight mahjong in future, its really tiring. and i have to stay awake now as i have something on in one or two hours time.

7:29:00 AM Y

In life, we can't get to chose which news to be delivered to us. We are only allowed to accept it, be it bad or good. This is reality. An unbelievable yet shocking fact that none of us hope its real. But subconsciously, we very well understand that this is goin to be a fact we have to face up to eventually. if we could choose, I would pray that it didn't happen. It's definitely not the correct path but hope u can get the best out of it. Rest well, my friend.

Life is so fragile, ought to treasure everything and appreciate their presence. Why care so much when u won't even know what's going to happen next? So morale of the story is to give all out to achieve the tempting wants by eradicating all the distracting factors as they are out to make u regret.

On a lighter note, I love primary school kids. They are so innocent and cute. sometimes they will randomly drop me with imba cute questions to brighten up my stay. Don't understand why we have to grow up to become a sophisticated adult. Ain't childhood the most beautiful phrase of life? Tell me more about hypocrites, they are everywhere now. (when I'm not even considered an adult)

I'm not scared of going to places that I haven't been before anymore. I love bus rides alone, because I don't have to entertain the person beside me. But i dont like to take bus alone at night cos i cant c the bus no and its scary. Beside the goods, fml when I alight at the wrong bus stop and ended up being late for 30 minutes like today. A direction noob just won't get better by experiences.

Screwed up laptop Internet connection. But thankful to my itouch else I won't be blogging in peace now. Words should be more than enough to entertain u stalkers out there.

2:14:00 AM Y

Been suffering from insomnia, feeling sleepy but just can't fall asleep. Must be due to the reworking of my rusty brain.

Met up with the guys for lunch. Its been some time since i fork out some time to meet up with the sec sch loves, miss those days. Had a quick lunch n rushed to mj with ler n co. Ashton and nuaaaaa all the way while waiting for our movie, clash of titans to start. For the first time, I didn't sleep for a midnight movie! A show full of dota characters.

A weird feeling. Not u, another u.

5:43:00 PM Y

15th May 1990

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Temasek Polytechnic "

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