my life, my words

if you cant imagine the amount of agar plates (87 each) that we did, try to imagine not having the time to even have a sip of water. definitely not exaggerating and we really felt super drained at the end of the day. Love my C darling cos she boosted my energy by passing me a box of ferrero rocher randomly! ok im too tired to blog.

7:44:00 PM Y

you got me all smiling.
what a perfect mood to end of this perfect night=)

12:03:00 AM Y

3 ppl shared one fish head for 32 dollars, like not expensive when i only ate like 5 slices of fish meats and 2 tofus. i felt like a vegetarian cos totally deprived of chicken meat. give me my chicken! kaooooooooo

talking about eating chicken wings outside, i can always rmb how lcm used knife and fork to slice out the meat from a chicken drumlet for me when i told him i dont want to eat cos i dont want to dirty my hands. another time was din helping me to tear out the meat again for the same reason.

such a nice weather to nuaaaaaa at home. =DD

thousand and one excuses spinned to keep that habit. even so, im still holding on to the promise. that was the last. but, can i like break the promise plssssss?

thinking about the daily visit to AS4 is killing me. the cold dungeon. nvm, believe it will soon become routine and more steady with our time management.

8:40:00 PM Y

Facebook's horoscope is so true today!

Your Daily Horoscope: August 30, 2009
Taurus
Apr. 20 - May 20
With all the changes that have happened recently, it is good that you've taken this time to relax, Taurus. It looks like many things have settled and that today is a time to enjoy yourself. It looks like the biggest problem may be discussing the problems of the past week and dealing with the memory of the frustration with those situations. If there is a celebration or get together you really don't feel like going to, follow your instincts and relax at home for the evening, or put some energy into a chore you've been neglecting: you'll be happy with the results.

Indeed alot of changes happened recently which got me really suffocated. For example, MP is getting the centre life of my holiday and also some other personal irritants. Yes, i am struggling hard to get the memory of frustration out these few days. i still feel so restricted and everything is beyond my control despite the attempt to solve. true enough, i was asked to a get together this evening but i rejected and decided to relax at home. not only that, i tidied my drawers and felt so neat. (i guess that was the chore i've been neglecting since im always lazy to DIG out my accessories from the mess) how much more true can this horoscope thingy be. ok at least i feel more refresh and energetic after a nice rest at home this weekend.

on a sidenote, i l the w you p your h a m w at l h=) (for ly)

7:41:00 PM Y

Msia-pengarang and kota tinggi

early in the morning six o'clock

the mini waterfall

i was shiveringggg

testing the size of the boot

i loved this black pepper crab!

he was attempting to push me into the water, tsk.

getting all excited before the firefly boat ride

spot the tiny fireflies we caught in this pathetic ziplock

nasi pattaya

1:36:00 AM Y

Teoheng with the Darlings

she looked so squashed

i was setting the self-timer thingy, so pardon my pose.

1:20:00 AM Y

looking back at the memories make me sad,
just because they are way too beautiful to be true.

2:53:00 PM Y

caught final destination 3d yesterday. story wasnt fantastic, 3d spects wasnt fantastic. though i tried my best to keep awake as not to waste the super exp movie ticket, i fell aslp during some of the scenes. also, i have always dislike wearing spects and thus having to hold on to the 3d spects to prevent it from falling was a chore. nevertheless, the effects were kinda cool and definitely worth trying once. but that was only for the beginning cos towards the end, i got a little bit giddy from the supposingly popping out images. i think by far hangover is the only movie that kept me wide awake throughout, love that movie! fun aside, major project has been getting rather taxing. glad that it was just a trial-run when all these lessons were learnt. despite all the frustration and naggings along the way, my grp members have been awesome! :) everyone has their own unique way of doing days. for me, i prefer to gather everything before-hand and be systematic. that explains why i always spend one hour sorting out my notes before i start studying. pros and cons. sometimes i just dont understand why i can in the past but not now. just because of falling sick for 5 days the other time? if this is so, i would rather not have that 5 days mc instead. this is getting so unreasonable and it just doesnt stop. the more u like to prevent, the more i will make them happen. anyway, a simple day out with love was a good way of destress.

12:20:00 PM Y

my fault, i didnt check that its checked.

1:46:00 PM Y

i went simpang bedok to eat dinner/supper. and i just vomitted out the nasi pattaya that i ate. kao, my 5.50!

2:31:00 AM Y

Jurong Bird Park

still my all time favourite! clumsy penguinsssss

legendary blue bird=D

1:42:00 AM Y

Mediacorp radio- sudoku event helper.

they do i watch.

1:30:00 AM Y

Gerald's 20th.

the doraemon and snoopy looking cute STILL.

the chao tah doraemon and snoopy

the poly mates.

1:01:00 AM Y

today 4 hours was cheated off me. my supervisor told us the training will end around 12 but everything dragged all the way untill 4plus. i dont mind staying if i didnt have any plan beforehand you see. but i still stayed to learn the procedures though i whined non-stop to ahpan and jiele. ended up going to tm starbucks to slack instead of our bugis kimchi fried rice plan. such a draggy day. to plan things well, is it good or bad? if i already had a bad experience with such situation, wont i be more cautious? i mean, i will definitely respect the decision if its a good one which in this case its purely a good one, no doubt but be fair to all aspects of considerations. the choice is yours, bear the consequences. consequences can be good or bad cos it depends on how u manage them. a good future should match with good consequences, will then have a good ending. ok, maybe i shall learn to be more supportive. actually not that i wont support, just that i dont encourage, but i will still support for sure.=) today i missed a bus 8, so we(with jiele) boarded a random bus to the next stop so that we can wait for bus 15 as well. while waiting for the traffic light, bus 15 passed. awwwwww. the story didnt stop here, when we alight the random bus, we saw a bus 8 right behind. haha, lucky or unlucky? you choose. its the last and i need to endure to resist. hi determination. going back to school with everybody holding a stack of paper on their hands doing some last min preparation before their exams, the feeling is good. AS students normally will be the last few to end their papers and so this kind of feeling is rare for us pls. its like people are mugging their spectacles off the notes and we are enjoying our so-called-holiday while doing mp. can we watch movies for free in the cinemas? today i was looking through my wallet and took out the stack of movie tickets, not a complete set though. looked through the movie titles i've watched and found some super foreign. must be one of the many that i fell asleep during the show. HAHA typing a blog post without paragraph and being super random is soooooooo fun. people continue to read untill the end and it kept me occupied for close to 1 hr? smileeeeeeee LY=D

11:19:00 PM Y

today i walk like a clumsy penguin. badminton is really a good sport as it never fails to make my butt and legs muscleache the next few days, no matter how long i played. woke up so early just for badminton, healthy lifestyle. had sudden craving for bakkutteh so went to tamp 201 for lunch and headed for mahjong next. ladyluck is back from her trip, selamat datang! he refused x1872671261782 times to wake me up today for my work cos his attempt to wake me up yest pissed him off. i secretly slept back after his morning call only. LOL but he still called to wake me up today, awwwwwwwww=DD worked on a beautiful sunday as mediacorp radio event helper. easy job, easy money, good companies and time passed fast. somemore each of us got to carry one paper bag of HL milk and peel fresh's fruit juices home. i have been very lazy to save the photos on facebook and C darling actually helped me to save all of them for me! to be honest or not, i kept asking myself. though not very pleasant a result but your understanding surpassed my expectation, thanks LY=D! determination is something im lacking. tml have to wake up early AGAIN, i dont like waking up early=( ok something very random, i need to change my hp sock soon. somehow somewhat sometimes its good to be occupied like today. okkkkkkkkkkkk, im tired.

10:08:00 PM Y

sometimes i have the urge to close down my blog, not totally being lazy but just refuses to share much. but closing down the blog will means i have one less thing to do online, nono im bored enough. i have alot alot photos to save from facebook, some yet to upload from my camera as well and this blog been so wordy for long. y facebook dont have a "download album" function so that we can just download the whole album rather than saving it one by one or asking the user to send u. privacy issue? set a "ask for permission" request before proceeding with the downloads, wont that be perfect? guoyao's bd surprise was considered successful, eh we spent quite alot of effort ok. im tired of planning already, can i just enjoy and be a follower next time? ladyluck seems to have went for a trip, i miss you.=( i didnt know its study week only when i went back to school last week and used an empty com lab. everyone is studying while we are enjoying our long long holiday. ok, a well deserved one since not as if we didnt suffer through our SIP. when school reopens, everyone will be going for sip and everyone going in NS. school is going to be so boring, i miss year 1 and 2 alot. i felt the pain she had, i understand her reasons for doing those things, she just wanted to know his reactions. maybe she saw and regretted or maybe she saw and felt relived. dilligently, the brain will ask u not to do something silly but subconsciously the thought of having an attempt is always there. sometimes some things are hard to control. ok anyway interview wasnt very badly done and neither was it well done. blame it on the last minute preparation or the wrong direction focused? nvm, at least now we have a clearer view, we are more focused, the objectives are zoomed. i cannot be crazy everyday, thats something i realised. there are times when i just dont feel like smiling or laughing at jokes, not that im in a bad mood or whatsoever. my battery is running low which means time for a re-charge! restriction is always well-known for causing side-effects. without restriction, how much can i resist myself? i dont have the determination and preserverance to stop now, weak. studying is boring but having nothing to do during holiday is another boring affair, i swear. that boy was rather health-conscious lately and yesterday after we parked the car, he went "wheres mac ar?" haha, so much so for being healthy when he's been having mac for lunch the day before, supper yesterday and suggested KFC for lunch today. im trying to feel contented with my boring life now. haha ironyyyy. time is the drug, the antidote. its been so much better this way, isnt it? or is it only me who is thinking this way? correct me if im wrong. as much as i want to know the truth, i just dread going back to those days. the current simple yet peaceful days been good, thanks for melting. is anyone still reading up till this point? i refused to paragraph this post to entertain losersssss who read such a long and random post. if you are still reading, hello loser. =)

11:11:00 PM Y

thanks darling for your pretty pretty powerpoint slides!
although i have been entertaining your jokes with irritating and sacarstic laughters, u are still candy candy to me! LOL

i dont know how to repay my friends for pulling me up these few days but all i can return is a sincere thank you from me. i can see, hear and feel all your naggings or even worries, i do keep them in my heart. 疯疯癫癫的我，希望你们不会在意！笑总比哭好吧。=DD

hopefully, i wont make myself disappointed this time.

1:00:00 AM Y

i found my reason to stop, hope you find your reason to start. =D
dear diary, i can stop dear diary-ing. =DD
sorry my dear friends, appreciate.

12:26:00 AM Y

as expected, all the change in impressions.

but i dont care
im too tired to even care about myself and much more care about others.

1:50:00 AM Y

haha btw, i packed my table.

i dumped some notes underneath, dumped some gifts into the drawer and dumped some into the cupboard.

12:44:00 AM Y

休息是为了走更长远的路。
i trust i trust. =)

12:32:00 AM Y

i felt better talking to you, thanks. =))

12:25:00 AM Y

Dear Diary,

Day 1 was terrible. i tried my best to stay cool but the mental struggles got me suffocated. i cant concentrate and lost big bucks in mahjong. Nevertheless, it ended off good cos i started lying to myself and accepted lies.

2:08:00 PM Y

i wasnt taught how. i wasnt given a instruction manual to follow. im really losing my direction trying to figure out when im heading towards. if u were to ask, nothing went wrong but something just dont seems right. all i know was, i just didnt want to stay sober.

have to thanks my lovely classmates for taking care of me these 2 nights- chasing me up and down, in and out. i've somehow somewhat got everyone worried and busied with, my apology. tanah merah chalet is still awesome as always.

my mom was like damn smart "wa, no mahjong for your chalet, no wonder you come back from chalet also looked so sian" actually not totally, i was just exhausted from all the struggles.

i need to upload photos and save photos from fb.
i need to read up and get prepared for my interview.
i need to pack my table.
i need to breathe.

8:57:00 PM Y

i am lazy to pack my bag for chalet.

so much so for the anticipation, it all ended with disappointment here and there. some excused some not. ok nvm, im tired and shall just go with the flow. ill just be like sitting there and waiting for a conclusion to be reached. it sounds a little irritating but suprisingly thats how things worked.

the sense of uncertainty is killing me. as much as i want to know the truth, im afraid to face the reality. perhaps i just wanted an answer that i desired, something perfect in my perception. you are sitting on fences and playing mind games. im getting nowhere, neither here non there. can i have some defined directions? like if its really good, be good all the way.

hahahhaha baked smoky potato.

i want to go!
but can i? haiz...

2:07:00 PM Y

somtimes i just feel forced to smile or laugh at a joke that is not funny. its making me uneasy, although im trying to stay normal and much being involved. if i have the technology to invent a device, it would be something that can make humans hearts visible. wont it be cool to know how people are feeling?

11:55:00 PM Y

yesterday was SINGAPORE's birthday. beautiful fireworks, the duration abit disappointing though. was still standing there hoping for more to come. shooting stars, u wished and u gained. you gained and you lost.

thanks ch for ordering a 5 dollars strawberry milk ice for me. dont understand whats wrong with him, seriously. lol WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, never think before he buy!

bang bang bang, whos dead? me.

4:40:00 PM Y

ok blogger doesnt allows me to upload photos again, having moodswings i guess. saw thousand and one birds yesterday and Ricky=DD took like two thousands and two pictures of birdies. wasnt as fantastic as compared to zoo and night safari. but i still love the fat and clumsy penguins, they look rather dumb.

if only life has a "restart" button, how great can that be.

3:09:00 PM Y

yesterday i had very irregular timing for my meals. i ate prata at 3am, koko krunch at 8am, bak kut teh at 10am, seafood delights at 2pm, nasi pattaya at 9pm. like keep eating non-stop only.
ok, gained 1kg=(

kota tinggi and pengarang.
legendary waterfall,
awesome beach,
shiny little fire flies
and
sleepy car rides.
everything was great despite not sleeping the night before,

especially the beach with millions of cute and tiny hermit crabs!
if only the imperfections were perfect.

8:03:00 PM Y

Terance's 21st birthday

he treated us to this jap bbq restaurant @ holland village

his super disappointed look

his forever-18 look

his happy happy look

6:30:00 PM Y

Since i just chiong finish my SIP report and logbook this morning, 顺便upload these outdated pictures. have to thanks ryn, ger and jan for helping me with the report!

DAYS AT SIN HWA DEE