my life, my words

im too tired to do any school related stuffs now. aching all over and having not enough sleep is killing me today. i've been yawning since 8am and cant wait for 6pm to come. its the first time i wanted to get home so much! counting down for every lessons hoping that time can pass fast so that i can go home. ya laugh pls, my fri timetable is 8am-6pm.

tons of research.
tons of presentation.
i have no more energy left now. stop torturing me pls=)

8:39:00 PM Y

its not that i always want to restrict or bother, i just wanted to be selfish when i can.

i feel a sense of satisfaction cos i played badminton before ac training and ran the reservoir today! training was fun.

i am a VERY happy girl today! cvk knows why. =)

too tired to type in details but theres smth i need to rant about.

by doing what you deem fit simply showed how insensitive you are towards others. i will respect leaders who follow suit whatever punishment he/she gave to their members instead of those who only know how to give instructions. if you expect your members to do something, shldnt you be showing that you can also do it thats y you dare to give that instruction? i dont care how much you went through cos thats your problem. it happened once the other time and stopped me from going for couple of weeks. am i your dog? who do you think you are to expect me to look upon you as though you are my master? if you were treated like a dog before, that makes you an experienced dog. dont ever notice or rmb me cos i dont want to be recognised by you, thanks. if it werent for someone, i wouldnt have tolerated you. you are such a total turn off.

12:35:00 AM Y

happy 2*th birthday KIAN AIK!

4E! those who have yet to check your email faster do so! also i would like to wish all the A levels ppl the best of luck! like what andy said in his email, do 4E proud!

also LCM, work hard for your As and i promise to have make-up lunch with you! =) you still owe me that treat i dont care.

i dunno whats wrong with me.

12:06:00 AM Y

not that i didnt want to do anything, its just that i dunno what should i do. i end up not doing anything at all. cos i spent the whole night thinking of what should i do. i dont like this feeling of being stucked in btw. i dun have a clear direction and i need someone to guide me along. this feeling seriously sucks.

i love LOVES deep deep pls!
NOT knowing that i'm stress, she cheered me up in this stressful night.
super sweet pls. she made me smile=)
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UR BLOG!
[c=19][i] CHERYL [/i][/c] says:
I THINK U LOOK PRETTY PRETTY IN THE PHOTOS!
i dont care, i insist shes not lying to me. LOL!

11:14:00 PM Y

alittletipsy

jim beam.

hi disgusting vege drink.

<-hector krist. xiaolan krist->

twist rocks

-EDITED

i forgot to mention that the guys went for some temporary tattoo at far east! so much wanted to have a try on the spray on but permission not granted by my guardian angel. so gave it a miss.

thats hector's barcode on top and kristz's radioactive sign on the bottom.

the butterfly and the heart are nice.

i like this two. the skull especially

11:59:00 PM Y

arg i dont like blogger and my camera. they refuse to let me upload my photos peacefully! i'm sick of the internet failure page already. photos to be uploaded soon then, freak...

i need to start packing my table and sort out my notes. i need to start filling up my monthly planner to know whats going to happen next. i need to start my research soon else i'll start to panic tonight. i need to get into the school-has-officially-started kind of mood. i need to stop going out till late nights cos im scared of heihei.

sometimes when you dont mean something, dont say it out cos i might think its true and it keeps me thinking. im tired of playing mind games. stop making me guess what you people are thinking. "its not what you said that hurt, its what you didnt say that hurt more" mayb i shld learn to be nonchalant.

R=DD is a walking mp3 player as he can sing any song i randomly pick.
i just want to nua my day off.

1:28:00 PM Y

the coffin is good! but that was only after i clarify my doubts after the movie alright. as expected for a thai horror film, there was alot of twist and turn with a unique storyline. theres also quite a couple of scary scenes. worth watching i should say.

during the movie, i was thinking of something. if you are given a choice, would you rather let your loved one die or you urself to die? if you were to die, your loved one will have to suffer through those pain. but if your loved one were to die, it wont be as pleasant too isnt it?

before coffin, they went cine for their lunch. OKAY I PSK OKAY! cos i had my lunch before meeting them, so that explains that label. then, from cine we walked all the way to far east and all the way back to cine for movie. then after movie, we walked all the way to plaza sing to slack. ya sweat dry sweat dry, super shiok.

kristz who was tipsy just now kept shouting "happy I_ _ _ _ _ day" at the mrt station! IMBA LA DUDE! XL and Hect enjoyed their 100% vege drink from daiso which i totally cant stand the shitty tomato taste! no offence towards that drink but its just personally dislike ar. i rather drink PURE than that seriously.

and its true that people who r troubled get tipsy faster. or was it due to the empty stomach? its the only way to get away from reality, i guess?

ok DESMOND TJH from tp hockey wants his name here with the biggest font. thats the largest i can go, lazy to paint your name pls.

hungry. tired.
hungry cos i skipped dinner
tired cos i dont wish to stay awake

11:59:00 PM Y

a rather grand and heartwarming birthday celebration. its my first time celebrating for an elderly. many people turned up and have made the atmosphere to its peak. happy 68th birthday ah ma!

happy 19th birthday CHEE HIANG! (and mai.)

sometimes i really dunno whats wrong with me, i dunno what i'm thinking. the walk wasnt really peaceful considering the fact that i'm afraid of being in the dark alone and heihei. it calms me down while walking aimlessly. knowing that you'll be following

i'm just trying to be myself.

11:49:00 AM Y

buying something for someone who is not of my age group isnt easy at all! lucky my mom was there to help me with all the decisions. and whats more, i have my sponsor for my msia study trip!

big big hole in pocket.

and KANG ZHI YING IS ATTACHED OMG! lol its such a shocking sight ok! but still, all the best to you ms cotty.

hope you'll make the right decision or you will regret the rest of your life. do the right thing and dont let such a long one goes down the drain. someone once told me that it might be painful to lose, but if continue i'll be the one suffering. its quite true in most such cases. so no matter what, no one can force you to make any decision. its all yours now, my dear. things will turn out fine soon! =)

my whole body is aching and i walk like a crab. dont laugh.
fan shu saw my super tak glam hairstyle just now. dont laugh, hate you pls.
but still, thanks his friend (ck or kc, i know got c and k) for the troubles.

i am nervous for later.

4:11:00 PM Y

i'm aching all over thanks to yesterday's ac training!

moreover, i had one hour plus of badminton before the ac physical training. that definitely adds on to my muscle strains that i had, considering the fact that i am not a very physical person ever since secondary school. but the feeling of muscle aching is shiok-ness pls.

OH! how can i not mention that my seoul garden yesterday was utterly ruined by a shrew, "an ill-tempered scolding woman". haha how perfectly that word suits you. in the end, i have to skip my ice cream just to further understand how a shrew should sound like. i still prefer ice cream to shrew eh how? come print screen for all i care, LIKE I'M SO SCARED MUMMYYYYYYYY. hi mummy girl, you've got such an obnoxious behavior. =) mummy girl rocks yo!
我对你还保留着一份尊敬，可别得寸进尺。

thanks to my lovely fpqap group members, i was allowed to go off first to catch the butterfly lovers! the movie is ya obviously about romance but its more towards humorous than touching as an overall. but wu zun definitely worth the movie ticket!

that scary period is coming soon! i hope i can brace through it this time round cos its been long since it can be happily done so. thats my short term goal for the week!

1:08:00 AM Y

i'm sorry i'm not of much help.

4:27:00 PM Y

8:32:00 PM Y

you told me your stories, how much u put in ur everything yet suffered at the end of the day. i dont find them stupid but its a lesson learnt, which is to give and take to strike a balance. its obvious you are trying to put in good words and making things work out. you just arent aware that sometimes, the problem dont just lies on me. i wont want history to repeat as well, thats y im trying so hard now you see. you will find yours soon. =) i just dont have the courage you had. but i wish i do.

sometimes its better not to draw clear lines with people who will still appear within your vision. it will only make your life difficult at the end of the day as you wont know when you might need their help. judging on your actions, it just relates to me how insensitive you can be. imagine being slapped on the face in public, thats the impact of your words. be wise and watch whats to say and whats not.

CHRISTMAS TREE ATTACKS!

the most scary person is someone who appears to be neutral yet turns around to stab you right in front. is it better to be backstabbed or frontstabbed? was it your true self or have you just changed? so much so for putting good words for you all these while. thanks for letting me know, you are scary.

new classmates with already formed cliques. but at least i still can attend lectures with my darlings. thats the good thing of first week as i have mainly lectures and it seems nothing much of a change!

reading back, i regret doing something bad. i didnt realise that my words were that harsh back then. i'm really sorry. i didnt meant to be that direct and insensitive. i know you still read but doubt it matters anymore. just to say, maaf. sorry for not being that strong girl you always praise. instead you are the strong one who managed to survive through all these. maaf.

its no longer the same. be it you or you.

bugis-ed with the usuals and its greenies day! good times will stay, wont they? promise me no hi-bye friends we'll become.

on a random note before i end this emotional entry, i dont like outings to clash. =(

5:51:00 PM Y

9:45:00 PM Y

been working with numbers for the past two days. no brain job with free lunch, air con, comfortable chair and tv to watch. definitely time pass very fast having such working environment! but the bad thing is that i might dream of numbers chasing after me as my job was just to mark sudoku!

not at all anticipating school tml. i dont wan to feel prepared for it. feel like being slapped? ask me why then. i dont want to question myself in case i cant sleep again tonight. =( PLS NO TUT AND LAB FOR THIS WEEK! stupid timetable. stupid acadamic calendar. everything also clash. why cant the school system let us choose our own timetable?

i still have prawning and amber21 pictures to be uploaded!

11:13:00 PM Y

photos- AC CHALET (13-15october)

this is our dinner at AJITEI

this is the best among all

ply's

this is mine!

wz's

thanks faezah for the small gift from vietnam! the guy on the right is mine.

yingen vs ricky

most crowded neoprint ever!

10:50:00 PM Y

AC chalet (13-15october)
dined at AJITEI, a japanese restaurant to satisfy wz's cravings for the hokkaido fair. the food is nice but not the dessert! thanks for the treat but its nothing compared to my TCC treat ok!!! as expected, they went to arcade for their all time favourite basketball. made our way to PA and had some detour due to some lack of communication.

a new game learnt during this chalet, chinaman! its fun only when you play it with alcohol chivas is nice as your brain will start to retard and the game will become laughter filled. go back jump is also played which i almost died doing the forfeit which is to dance in front of them! thanks ricky=DD for taking the forfeit for me a couple of time. but still, i am forced to do the last one myself! not very well done though, IM SHY OK!

my all time favourite mahjong was next! ended the game the next morning with a small winning of 6 dollars! finally i am out of my losing streak, not bad not bad! went home afterwhich and bla bla bla, shall skip the details.

next day's event were: arcade, prawning, chinaman and video viewing.
again, when back home in the morning and that ends the ac chalet for me.

AMBER 21 (15 october)
the initial plan was zouk but ended up pubbing. we were bounced back 3 times due to some forseen circumstances. oh well, despite that we did have fun pubbing till 4am anyway! i swear i know what went on although i appeared to be abit high. nice experience. chivas is nice!

CSC chalet (16-17 october)
went for prawning and this time round decided to give the rod a try! but sad to say, i have totally no patient for it and i get frustrated when theres no prawn! so vivi and i left the rod to the safe hands of ricky's and he managed to catch 1 prawn. the best part was eating the fresh bbqed prawn! though its very sinful to do so, its really awesomely delicious.

went back chalet for some asshole taidee. headed home around 6am and scammed ch all the way to my house downstairs! LOL its really hillarious when i saw the bus stop which he should alight for his bus passing by. actually i didnt have the intention to scam him but it happened accidentally. LOL

had my super filling big breakfast and fell asleep immediately. had a nice 7 hours sleep when i receive a call from hector? IMSORRY GUYS! i totally forgot bot the outing and was too tired to wake up to meet them at that moment. hope you guys had fun anyway!

considering the fact that i've been toning and sleeping in the morning at 6am onwards for the past four days with only a pathetic 3 plus hours everyday, who will not be sleepy and tired. but at least i wake up with a sense of anticipation instead of those bad dreams.

TimeTable-suck
im very upset over the new class arrangement so stop rubbing salt onto my wound, thanks.

Today
work. bad day. =(

11:19:00 PM Y

bugis, after sentosa (12 october, sunday)